I am struggling to meet a blog writing deadline. Confession time: I googled blog topics. *cringe* Don’t get me wrong, I have many topics running through my head right now – I just can’t stop one topic long enough to get more than one sentence typed about it. I am struggling, I know I am not alone.
While we are in the midst of the Covid-19 and being vigilant about social distancing, I’m finding myself with more free time than I thought I’d have. I am working from home 4 days of the week and go into an empty office the 5th day for 8-9 hours. On the days I am working at home the hours are not filled with only work for my job, but research and work for my charity or with keeping in touch with family and friends; which I need.
I think one of the reasons I am struggling is because I have too much time on my hands. Seriously friends – way too much time. I miss the days when I was being pulled in so many directions I felt like Stretch Armstrong, also I don’t really miss those days. For me, having more things to do helped me to manage my time and deadlines better as I knew I HAD to get things done. I HAD to keep moving to stay focused on my tasks instead of what was happening around me. Now that I have this new found freedom, I’m having a hard time staying on task because I actually have time to think about how much I am in denial about how I really feel. You’ll be surprised to find there is more confessing to follow… (note the sarcasm)
I AM STRUGGLING
Just like you, I am sad about what is happening right now. It is the same sadness I felt when I watched the Columbine shootings unfold, and when I watched 9/11 happen. These life changing events, these world changing events made me so sad. I mourned for the lives lost, as well as for the loss of trust in humanity we all felt. One thing I know from watching those things happen and watching Covid-19 race around the world is that we will get through it. We will be stronger and smarter because of it.
Yes – I am struggling but I also know that I will be ok. We will be ok. We will all process what is happening in our own ways. We will all have days filled with sadness but remember that we will have many more days of happiness. Allow yourself time to be sad, to be scared, to be worried but more important – allow yourself to be happy!
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